Just under 48 hours away

Well I am going to have my surgery in just less than 48 hours. I just got back from my pre opp appointment. Wow I am getting a little nervous about this whole thing. I want to get this weight off of me but it makes me so nervous to do this. I think its just the jitters about the whole thing. I am worried that some thing is going to go wrong and I wont be here with my family. well I guess if it happens I just want everyone in my family to know that I loved them and please dont morn my death but celebrate my life. And please tell my boys everyday that I love them with all my heart and they all ment the world to me. Including my nephews. Tell them to always to dream big and set their goals high in life. I know they all could do anything in life if they put their minds to it. Someone please tell sean how much I really do love him. And tell him I said dont worry. I will never leave his side not even in death. to look to god and to brother Ben they will all get him through anything. And to know that I left this earth with all I ever wanted in life and that was to know that he did truly love me. Ok so this sound a little much. but just in case something does go wrong and I dont make it out alive that my family knows how i really do feel.

But if I do make it and i am sure i will than I love you all and I will be home saturday!!!